Valentines day The Social Rejects point of view:
Having always been fat, awkward, out of touch with fashion, music and sports. No interest in politics, finance, etc. I have never had a wife, fiancé, girlfriend, friend with benefits, crush, puppy love, flirtation, or even casual female acquaintance. The last person I gave a valentine to was my entire first grade class and that included guys. So on this Valentines Day I can offer no words of wisdom on how to make a woman happy. It would benefit you more to ask the average 12 year old; they at least have been to a "Rainbow Party" or had 5 mins in Heaven. I was always left out of those kind of games, hell I wasn’t even invited to the parties where they took place. So I never spun the bottle, played truth or dare, or force field.
When a female looks at me they immediately count me out of anything besides a hello, and usually not even that. When a female does talk to me it's usually a snarky remark regarding my weight. I was coming out of an on the border once, I smiled and held the door open for a nice looking girl who said "Did you leave any food for us?" This was 15 years ago but it still haunts my subconscious and deters my self esteem. This is the one time a woman spoke to me that didn’t have to. Even then, Waitress, hostesses, even the prostitutes I have been to don't make eye contact, and get whatever it is they are being forced to do over with as soon as possible. Waitresses would rather not get a tip then have to smile at me and treat me with any respect, or make me feel that they are interested in anything but business. I can't get a good haircut from a female because they can't stand the thought of touching me. They never ask if I want a shampoo first because that would be too intimate of a setting for them, even if it means more money in their pocket. If there are no male stylists I will give the woman stylist the option whether or not to take me. It's better than them speeding it up get it over with and I end up with a crooked cut.
When I walk through a parking lot women get in their cars and lock the doors, sometime with groceries still in the cart. Mothers gather and hold on to their children as I walk by. I am denied jobs and business opportunities. I had a supervisor who did not want me to help sell their gourmet products to in house customers because he thought they would lose their appetite and start thinking about cutting down. FAT GUY= BAD FOR BUSINESS!
Having recently lost 50 pounds I have learned that "FAT IS FAT" Even if you used to weigh 500 pounds, people only see how you are now, and if you are 15 or more pounds overweight, forget your social life. No matter how good I feel about myself having gotten this far, when I walk down the street people say "God Damn that's a big fat F**K!" So it doesn’t' matter if I weigh 298 or 248, to a woman it's still a big FAT NO! People look at fat folks as lazy, slovenly, and even stupid! All I know is there are a lot of lazy, slovenly, and very stupid guys I know who have more women than they know what to do with, the only difference: THEY ARE THIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So F**k Valentines day, have fun all you beautiful, thin, successful people! I am staying home and watching Star Trek.
I have never been a musical person in the traditional sense. I love rock musicals (The Who's "Tommy", "Jesus Christ Superstar", "Pink Floyd's The Wall") big time! I have even forayed into "Porgy and Bess", "Finian's Rainbow", "The Sound Of Music" all of which I was exposed to as a kid, before I put labels on them (feminine, etc). So when I saw a trailer for "Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet street" I was less than enthusiastic. Even though it has one of my favorite actor/director teams (I saw "Edward Scissorhands" in the theater and was a very special experience).
